Sunday, October 29, 2006

Halloween

The tenacious d movie was pretty funny, there were a whole bunch of security guards walking around making sure no one would film it and put it on the interweb. At the start of the film, an old guard who looked like Morgan Freeman held up what looked like a fancy dolphin torch, and told everyone he could use this device to find out if we were recording.
Im pretty sure it WAS just his flashlight that he used it when the lights were out to get to the restrooms, because of a leaky bladder. I didn't get to see morgan freeman, i got confused and went to the wrong cinema, but at least i saw the old guard who resembled him. Morgan Freeman always plays an old guard or police guy, washed up, with the only thing giving him joy in life is a meaningless job, his wife left him decades ago.



Halloween is cool, everyone dresses up and parties. And kids run around taking candy from strangers.






This is the back of my pumpkin.















This is Andres my flatmate, he came first with that piece of crap!!!












This is front of my aussie pumpkin, my kangaroo kicked ass. I came second by one vote, -see Andres' witch carving next to my one.







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Thursday, October 26, 2006

Foliage!

I was drunk last post, but lucky i'm a high functioning drunk. Like i don't really remember writing that middle aged man story, but when i read through it again just now, i was very impressed with how coherent it is. And lucky the parcel arrived, so i have some good pain killers- seeing as it's been a month since i've gotten drunk,-properly- i forgot about hangovers. When i was drinking regularly a while back, they didn't bother me, they weren't even that bad, maybe my body became complacent. But man i woke up today and it hit me, dam.
I have the jack black, 'tenacious d in th epick of destiny' premiere tonight, followed by a showing of monty pythons 'life of Brian.' - the tenacious d film doesn't actually come out till nov 22nd in theatres.






This is the faulkner car lot, the faulkner complex is where i live.









Look at all the foliage! oh my god, so much fucking foliage.
















this is the woods on the other side of the road, and you can see the handrail leading down to the road. I like that handrail, it's one of my favourites. I don't recall having ever used that handrail, but i know it's there if i slip. And that gives me hope.Posted by Picasa







Cavalier Daily Comic.










Quotes: Krusty the clown; this guy is the seediest around, and he is a childrens entertainer, classic

Krusty: Lets just say it moved me. To a bigger house! Oh crap, I said the loud part quiet and the quiet part loud.
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Krusty: Don't blame me! It's the percadan. If you ask me, that stuff rots your brain ... And now a word from our new sponsor ... Percadan, oh crap!
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Krusty: Thirty-five years in show business and already nobody remembers me. Just like what's his name, and whos-its, and you know, that guy, who always wore a shirt.
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Krusty: I'm sitting here with a smokin' monkey and I dont even know what the hell you are!Sideshow Mel: Oh Krusty, you can be so cruel when you're sober

Life

It's amazing, life. It's nearly 6am and I have had many wines. Perhaps I should sleep soon, but I figured I would write a story first. And I wish My sister all the best. We all try to do our best don't we? And even if we don't we just kind of hang around and try to do something. I'm starting to feel like, the people with the giant IQ's kind of make up a world just to satisfy their insastiable minds, I mean great things get accomplished, like medicine and such, but even without all that stuff, life isn't too bad. And going on from that, it all seems a bit , and to quote Mr. Villari my year 12 English teacher, a bit of an over intellectualisation. I have found that nothing Shakespeare or Sylvia plath can write on a page, can compare to a 5.1 dolby surround sound explosion and car chase like Nic Cage in gone in sixty seconds, there is nothing that can compare to the visceral experience of what we feel now, phenomenology, it's what we experience right now that matters. And a book is great and a mind altering experience but seriously a Nic Cage car chase!! And the rational mind kind of sorts the rest out, according to how smart we are. St. Augustine would say that someone who follows the words of god in the scripture, but is ignorant of science is living a better life, than the person who is well rounded in all sciences but lacking god. Personally I think its all bullshit, its hard to say not to follow intellectual endevours, but have fun. Because we would all die of disease, but if you can't follow that pursuit and you find yourself in a position lacking poverty, why not NOT take things so dam seriously.

Middle aged man

He tried to adjust the carburetor and felt a cramp in his hand, the skin didn't return to its normal place for several moments. The oil stains washed away, but the scars stayed. A family was his last business, a daughter and two sons. The father had a brow thick and wide and the wife spoke of modern things. With the sun making its presence felt, he made their car move, and they left. Now he sat, the dust cumulating on the visor of his well worn dodgers cap. He thought of a simple time, when his work mattered and people were pleased. He felt bypassed, by a highway and a career that gave him loneliness, never married and ageing quickly. Looking in the side mirror of his f-100 he saw a face that lied to him, his smile betrayed a young man, and any suitor passing thought of him as dirty and old. The wooden bench was his view of life, and he watched time make a mark. The shed where his truck was stowed rusted each day and he saw the bitumen road in front, cover with a red sand from the last gale. The next customer, a lone woman of the age of thirty, asked for a service, the desert was hard and those who knew their way didn't pass by the middle aged man. She fluffed her skirt and exited the SUV.
'I'll Fill her up.'
He did it with a smile, and made small talk. His coffee machine was dry, but he filled it for her. She left, he said hello, but she left. His service was done.
He sat on the wooden bench and thought of the sun as it dipped, the lady would have to turn on her headlights to see in the dark . If he was with her, he could show her the way.
The middle aged man, turned off the neon welcome sign, and locked the doors. He sat on the wooden bench in the dark, the stars were shining bright and he looked at them with a slight hesitation. His life was helping the lost, but failing his spirit. His skin moved like leather with each day that passed, it would take much time to return to its old position. The wrinkles around his eyes formed, he didn't laugh but they formed. And he looked in the side mirror of the F-100 and saw a life that passed him by, but he smiled and felt happy. He made decisions, and he decided to live his life.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Harsh Winter

Its going to be a harsh, long, harsh and long, harsh winter, its already freezing and its only halfway through fall. Its only been the last couple of days which have been cold, it was a sudden drop. Right now its as cold as winter is in australia, i am definately going deeper south for christmas, not up new york way.

See the aussie twenty dollar bill, and all the plain american money that all looks the same. I miss having a wallet full of gay rainbow money, that you can't tear or lose in the wash!
















the wine at the supermarket is all australian, well the cheap stuff anyway, even after importing it's cheaper than virginian wine. I prefer the blackswan to the yellow tail , its about 7bucks US which i think might be ten in aussie dollars, i'm not sure i havent even thought about doing a mental conversion of currency for the last couple of months. My mind has shifted its all right hand side driving and degrees fahrenheit. Anyway there is no place like dan murpheys!!! you have to go to three different places for your supplies. Not to mention no bowlo's or leagues clubs or anything resembling an RSL, there are no clubs full stop- and i worked out why, you can only gamble at vegas and atlantic city. So what good is a club without slot machines?


this is my all-american shot, it really takes me back to high school, when i was the starting quater back and big man on campus, and dating the head cheerleader.













Cavalier dailer comic. for all my family members who don't know the basics of computing yo can click on the picture to see it bigger.Posted by Picasa


Quotes: Moe- i love Moe, what a lonely lonely man.

Moe: I'm better than dirt. Well, most kinds of dirt, not that fancy store-bought dirt... I can't compete with that stuff.
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Moe: Hi, my name's Moe. Or as the ladies like to refer to me, 'hey you in the bushes'
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Ned Flanders: You ugly hate-filled man.
Moe: Hey. I may be ugly and I may be hate-filled but ... uh ... what was that last thing you said?
^^^
Moe: They think they're so high and mighty, just because they never got caught driving without pants.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Stigmata

This might be my last post, as hypothermia is setting in. Im pretty sure my legs will be turning gang green soon. I drastically underestimated the temperature drop in c-ville, when i was returning home on my bike in a t-shirt and everyone else had parkers on i sensed something wrong. But luckily there was a gas station at the halfway point, and venturing in to seek refuge from the cold for a moment, i couldnt resist buying a sixpack of smirmoff and cigar, just in the off chance that i would survive the journey home and be able to celebrate. So here i sit enjoying my liquor and cigar.

This is my stigmata, it happened at a party the other night. I looked down and the blood was flowing from a wound in the center of my hand, it had stopped flowing by the time i took this photo. I was with some religious people at the time, and they freaked out for a bit. It wasn't new to me though, i have always considered myself the second coming!!

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Returning home from a party, Misael and i were drunk, actually i think it was just me drunk, but we had fun taking a million photographs with our respective flags.












Here is a nice old timey still life. Enjoy.












Quotes: Mr. Burns probably my second favourite simpsons character after Homer, although maybe Moe is my second favourite, i'm not sure

Mr.Burns: Quick Smithers. Bring the mind eraser device!
Smithers:You mean the revolver, sir?
Mr.Burns: Precisely.
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Burns: Look at that pig. Stuffing his face with donuts on my time! That's right, keep eating...Little do you know you're drawing ever closer to the poison donut! ... There is a poison one, isn't there Smithers?
Smithers: Err...no, sir. I discussed this with our lawyers and they consider it murder.
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Mr.Burns: (To Homer)One more thing...You must find the Jade Monkey before the next full moon!
Smithers: Actually sir, we found the jade monkey. It was in your glove compartment.
Mr.Burns: And the road maps, and the driving gloves?!
Smithers: Yes, sir.
Mr.Burns:Then its all falling into place!

Meeting many different people on my trip has been awesome. Some people are amazing, yet you only know them for several hours while you chat in the common room of a hostel. Some people you know a bit longer, and some girls you love and they inspire you, but then leave your life, like the mist clearing in the morning sun. People are destined to leave your life, through their own decision or in a pine box. And i look back on certain people i have known, and i know i will never see again, but yet they seem to comprise a large piece of pie in mind. I just have a few moments of memory with them, and those memories will fade, and so will the people who touched my life so deeply and scracthed a deep mark in my psyche. I will treasure those memories and hope that i will have many more in the future. Epicurus would find strength on his death bed simply by remembering a nice conversation with a friend, -- 'and i will walk and talk in gardens oh with a friend'- says van morrison in sweet thing.
Sometimes i feel sad when i think i will never see some of these incredible people again, but at least i had a few moments with them.

Sometimes you love someone, and the motherfuckers leave you anyway, and it hurts. It really hurts and you cant do anything about it. And i think sometimes that you want to spend more time with someone but that in reality it just doesn't work out, perhaps you only should have a few moments with them. The basic gist is that everyone goes away no matter what you give up, or what you do, they still leave, and it still fucken hurts. (i've had some wines) but i'm being honest and i think in life that all you can do is be honest, and if that offends someone then fuck them, at least your being true to yourself.
-Jroc just told me some wisdom, 'Don't be sad that's it's over, be happy that it happened.' just like every good friend i've met, temporary and then they're gone.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Hollywood takes over Charlottesville

Jack Black is premiering his new tenacious 'd' movie here at our film festival on the weekend of oct28th, its the world premiere! i just booked my tickets, its only 3bucks, apparently its one of the best film festivals in the country.morgan freeman, liev schreiber and a host of other celebs are hitting c-ville for the event, even an old alumni dude who is a producer now, he produced 'rain man' with dusty and tom will be there.
-Evan Almighty the $175 million sequel to bruce almighty was shot in charlottesville last year, and the director is going to preview some clips for it, steve carrell (the 40yr old virgin dude) is in it.
-Robert Duvall is going to present his new movie 'tender mercies.',
- i'm going to premiere my new documentary, 'coping with senility.'

-my tattoo sleeves are nearly complete,all the way up one and all the way down my other arm, a tiger, dragons, naked ladies, its brilliant, and some bluejays on my neck so i can fit in at longbay jail.

-i had a great trip to the post office yesterday, i had several items of outgoing mail, i still have some incoming mail to pick up, the parcel pick up is on the other side of campus, so receiving incoming envelopes is ok they get sent to my building, but anything big gets sent to parcel pickup.I also have my own roll of packaging tape now, and a box of 36envelopes- so if i wanted i could send many letters. I had to buy my own packaging tape because the postal system is a bit different than australia, the ladies behind the counter dont have any packaging tape, i had to learn this the hard way, seeing as morris wasn't around and he usually always has a roll of tape with him, which he steals from me, anyway i had to use some crappy sticky tape on a parcel, but not now, i have a roll of bigass packaging tape.

Cavaliers win in front of a national audience on ESPN, our record is now 3wins and five losses, after we crushed north carolina last night.
and morris if your reading this wherever in scotland you are, i could have seen eric clapton the other night for forty bucks next door at the john paul jones arena, i could have but i didn't.






THE coffee machine, i mentioned in a previous blog that kettles don't seem to exist here (i looked everywhere at wallmart), well this is what you get instead, a ten buck coffe machine from wallmart. It actually makes brilliant coffee, we started with some columbian and now Misael has just bought a new pack of ethiopian coffee, its smooth, very smooth. Nice





MY PICk OF A CAVALIER DAILY COMIC,






This little fella was on the steps outside of my apartment, he is having an identity crisis, i think that HE thinks that he is a leaf. I wish you could see it a bit better, it really does look like a leaf with legs. And i saw some groundhogs the otherday, i didn't know what they were at the time. I was waiting for the bus, on the side which borders the woods, and i saw a little rat looking thing, scampering around, i jumped back a bit because i was afraid it might have rabies or something, then after a minute, i looked back at it, and a giant fat one came running out, it was like a miniature wombat.














This is Misael coming out to see what was happening, he wanted to burn it with a lighter, a definate pyromaniac. but I saved the little leaf dude, from Misael's wrath. Posted by Picasa

Simpsons Quotes/ Comic book guy.

Comic Book Guy: But, Aquaman, you cannot marry a woman without gills. You're from two different worlds... Oh, I've wasted my life.

Comic Book Guy: These “Bat Pants” have been shredded by the Riddler.
Dry Cleaner Clerk: No, just your ass.
Comic Book Guy: That’s what I call my ass.

Comic Book Guy: The Internet King? I wonder if he could provide faster nudity...

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

It's a new day


I thought id put in another random cartoon from the cavlier daily, notice how it is written by two people, it took two people! to write this cartoon, about the homicidal spokeperson for burger king. I guess the king, thinks a whopper burger is a good valentine gift, you can't piss off the burger king. And being a university press cartoon, i'm sure there is some deep seated meaning in there somewhere, about feminism or seal clubbing or most likely president bush.





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-my friend matt stopped pledging in the fraternity, he said he will pick it up again next year and continue with the hazing,, i guess too many ass paddlings can get the best of you after a while.

-my first proper halloween is coming up, its like easter in oz with all the witchy stuff being sold at grocery stores and the like. i'm going to win the pumpkin carving contest that the faulkner area housing council is organising, ive already declared my self the champion. And im going to score a big sack of candy too.

-and whats with tattoo parlours having all the hospitality of a sewer rat? most of the time when you hang around in there pretending to look at the pictures and waiting till they acknowledge you, and they never do, and finally after three times of enetering the store over a period of several weeks,if they do acknowledge you, its like they are doing you a huge favour , they act like they don't need the cash. hey you're the one with a business setup on top of a chineese buffet, down some back street alley, im sure you could do fine without inking anyone up,

-and bands selling out, what is up with bands that are too self important to skim money from corporate accounts. If in defining themselves apart from a capitalistic society, and the great cogs of the advertising industry are they are making a stand for either a self absorbed cause --that they are somewhat better than the corporation buying them out, or as do they think they are the social mesiah of the little man, and don't want to elevate themselves above their fans or whore themselves just to make a buck. So bands like frans ferdinand who turn down 40 odd million dollars to have their music appear in an add, are missing a great opportunity to put community service before their own stoopid ego's and egotistical ideals, just so they can stay cool. Now selling out may loose some audience share for their next record but not any geezer could rob 40million quid from a company in broad daylight, for basically nothing. And think of the good they could do, a fucking robin hood if you will. They ride around on horses and tights and give the 'evil' money to all the people on the steets starving, or save a bit of the rainforest, but no they are too afraid rolling stone will call them out on it. these bands are egotistical bastards with nothing but a stupid indie rep to uphold.'oh we cant have all the depressed teenagers thinking we're with 'them',' they say while privately driving a porsche and living in the upper end of town.

-i thought this was neat- jrock's old punk band played with millencolin and anti flag. and bloodhound gang.. one of my favourite bands millencolin and he headlined them, he said he wasn't into them back then, this was back in 95-96 while the swedish group was establishing themselves in america, ive put some millencolin in the clip of the week , i couldn't find any good fast clips like no cigar, but even some of their slower stuff is alright

Quotes
'my advice to you, is to start drinking heavily'
john belushi- animal house - probably my favourite ever quote.

'new money always cries, now lets away to the hamptons.' rich prep school kid on simpsons.

'By my troth, I care not; a man can die but once; we owe God a death...and let it go which way it will, he that dies this year is quit for the next,' -henry iv - shakespeare

MOVIE OF THE WEEK: the squid and the whale

Idiosyncracy- saying macca's, i know we do all that stuff down under like turning monica into mozzy and daniel into dazza, and of course warren into wozza, but it just never occured to me untill the other day, when i got laughed at for saying it, that saying macca's is dinky die aussie.

Monday, October 16, 2006

camus can do, but satre is smatre

And on Thursday night in the USA at 7.30pm on espn the uva cavaliers are playing again, that’s right another ESPN game!!! So if you’re in Australia tune in on Friday morning at 9.30am in ESPN to watch the Cavaliers win, which we will, cause the team we play is even worse than us!!

And i have tested, this site is viewed best with INTERNET EXPLORER, other browsers will make the pictures overlap and stuff.

I thought in the spirit of Sue’s comment, I don’t want to let the donkey die, so I’m going to write what the hell I want. I think this post is for those with some free time, it could be seen as a way to pass time if you have nothing better to do, but an interesting way all the same. And for the others get back to writing your TPS reports. It’s a long post but I don’t give a ratsass.

In classes over the years we have discussed the form of death, and how it effects our view on the world whilst alive. I kind of like Epicurus who wasn’t the great hedonist everyone thinks he was, he was all about being free from the anxiety of death, and choosing the simplest path of least worry, he didn’t say pursue luxuries, because that would cause strain, but he felt like you could indulge in them as much as you like if they were easy to come by. Not really a great nation building strategy, but a way to live none the less.

This is an excerpt from the first page of the Epicurus reader and I think it sets up why I wrote the following piece, with all the essays I have to write for class, I figure why not write a bit of one for my leisure, more of a coherent rambling actually.
I like first pages of books, they are a very good summary of what is to follow, and once you read the whole book you slowly forget it anyway, so you might as well just read the first page from a hundred great books, than all the way through one.
Epicurus was around 300bc, an ancient Greek philosopher. And as with all philosophy, there are some points that are hard to swallow and seem absurd and you don’t have to think about, but there might also be some interesting stuff that you might find relevant.
-It’s a basic overview intro of epicurus, it just sets out a few of the main points, I thought it was interesting, that’s why I typed it out.

The excerpt is as follows:
-The fundamental obstacle to happiness, says Epicurus, is anxiety. No matter how rich or famous you are, you won’t be happy if you’re anxious to be richer or more famous. No matter how good your health is, you won’t be happy if you’re anxious about getting sick. You can’t be happy as a human being if you’re worried about being punished or victimized by powerful divine beings. But you can be happy if you believe in the four basic truths of Epicureanism: there are no divine beings which threaten us; there is no next life; what we actually need is easy to get; what makes us suffer is easy to put up with. We need food, water, shelter from the elements, and safety from hostile animals and people. All these things lie ready to hand and can be acquired with little effort or no money. We don’t need caviar, champagne, palaces, or bodyguards which are expensive and difficult to aquire and keep. People who want more than they need are making a fundamental mistake, a mistake that reduces their chances of being satisfied and causes needless anxiety. The discipline of Epicurean philosophy enables its followers to recognize how little they actually need, to then enjoy possessing it, and to enjoy the confidence that they will continue to possess it. On the other hand, there is no reason to enjoy occasional luxuries, if they happen to be easily available. (I think this point is why everyone wrongly now associates Epicureanism with hedonism) There is nothing wrong with luxury in itself, but any dependence on luxuries is harmful to our happiness, as is every desire for unnecessary things. ‘What’s terrible is easy to endure.’ There is no denying that illness and pain are disagreeable. But nature has so constituted us that we need not suffer much from them. Sickness either brief or chronic, and either mild or intense, but discomfort that is both chronic and intense is very unusual; so there is no need to be concerned about the prospect of suffering. This is admittedly a difficult teaching to accept, especially for young people, but as people get older and more experienced in putting up with suffering, they tend to recognize its truth more and more, as did the roman philosopher Seneca, whose health was anything but strong. Epicurus himself died in excruciating pain, from kidney failure after two weeks of pain caused by kidney stones. But he died cheerfully, he claimed, because he kept in mind the memory of his friends and the agreeable experiences and conversations they had had together. And mental suffering is agony to endure, but once you grasp the Epicurean philosophy you won’t need to face it again.
‘Don’t worry about death.’ While you are alive, you don’t have to deal with being dead, but when you are dead you don’t have to deal with it either, because you aren’t there to deal with it. ‘Death is nothing to us,’ as Epicurus puts it, for ‘when we exist, death is not yet present, and when death is present, then we do not exist.’ Death is always irrelevant to us, even though it causes considerable anxiety to many people for much of their lives. Worrying about death casts a general pall over the experience of living, either because people expect to exist after their deaths and are humbled and terrified into ingratiating themselves with the gods, who might well punish them for their misdeeds, or else because they are saddened and terrified by the prospect of NOT existing after their deaths. But there are no gods which threaten us, and, even if there were we would not be there to be punished. Our souls are flimsy things which are dissipated when we die, and even if the stuff of which they were made were to survive intact, that would be nothing to us, because what matters to us is the continuity of our experience, which is severed by the parting of body and soul. It is not sensible to be afraid of ceasing to exist, since you already know what it is like not to exist; consider anytime before your birth- was it disagreeable not to exist?
‘Don’t fear god.’ The gods are happy and immortal, as the very concept of ‘god’ indicates. But in Epicurus’ view, most people were in a state of confusion about the gods, believing them to be intensely concerned about what human beings were up to and exerting tremendous effort to favour their worshippers and punish their mortal enemies. No; it is incompatible with the concept of divinity to suppose that the gods exert themselves or that they have any concerns at all. The most accurate, as well as the most agreeable is to think of them as the Greeks often did, in a state of bliss, unconcerned about anything, without needs, invulnerable to harm, and generally living and enviable life.
If, however, the gods are as independent as this conception indicates, then they will not observe the sacrifices we make to them, and Epicurus was indeed widely regarded as undermining the foundations of traditional religion.-


-I wanted to form a basic groundwork, which helps lead to a discussion on existentialism.
With a brief overview on death’s insignificance;

Dear Mr. Vernon...We accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was that we did wrong. But we think you're crazy to make us write this essay telling you who we think we are, what do you care? You see us as you want to see us...in the simplest terms and the most convenient definitions. You see us as a brain, an athlete, a basket case, a princess and a criminal —just kidding, that’s Brian’s breakfast club essay.

-In life, our body has certain desires; you are by chance either male or female, and in that instance it will particularly shape your traits and personality, your ‘self’- This self then associates through a childhood more traits, and depending on either being male or female will learn to identify with these traits. A male will bond differently with other males, and females will have a different bonding and communicating experience- to the males. The external factors such as parental and environment also mold the personality. The chance of being male, female, rich, poor, white, black, yellow and the country of our origin, all physically determine the self identity, completely objective from our own desires.
On a basic level, the desires of the body and the quenching of these desires consume much of a daily task, the nourishment required is an epic undertaking and requires a high level of concentration. One’s own inherent desire to procreate drives other concentrations, and requires the gathering of shelters and foods and other supplies and a grasp of general social skills. If these desires do not exist then there are still the limitations of ones own body, which shape who we are - a cripple – purely through physical limitation will have a different experience of life, than is to the same person pre-cripple. So our physical desires and limitations define who we think we are, and then in that defining we find a certain individuality, that we take comfort in as thinking of as an innate ‘us.’
A random chance of sperm, parental guidance, shape and stamina of our body and brief encounters with either influential or insignificant beings, can affect our perception of the world and therefore how we view ourselves in that world.

Our temporary nature, in a fleeting life is based on bodily needs. It then follows that in death, these desires cease to exist and so do we. But it can also be argued on the side of those who believe in a continuation of life after passing that it must then be accepted, that it would be nothing as a current ‘self’ would recognize. You would no longer have the genes that determine your masculine or feminine traits, initially you would be unrecognizable, then the absence of bodily needs such as water and food would allow a leisure time and absence of necessity and desire that is unrecognizable. Without the physical limitations of a body giving you the attributes you thought of as you while you were living, such as – strong, weak, smart, good looking, ugly, driven, apathetic- without these you have no framework for your former personality to hang on to, you are a different person, and that different person has no connection to its former self, and has no longing to be its former self. So if in death there is a form of continuation, it is unlike who we are now, and does not effect who we are now, so for our current selves death is insignificant. For once it happens there is no desire to be alive again, because there is no same personality with the same bonds.

So then touching on Sartre, in this current state of being alive, and still knowing that death is inevitable, all one can do is assign our own values to our own life depending on who we want to be. We can take comfort in being responsible for choosing who we want to be, within the limits of our physicality. We can even choose to believe in some sort of grand destiny for our lives, or realize our own meaningless existence and live in a cave. These values we choose, can come from religion, societal norms, or even pop culture. One can be free to choose how to spend their life on this mortal coil, free from the fear of death. We are alive now, and once death happens there is either nothing-and so an eternal calm, or there is a form of continuation but it is so different and free from mortal desires and who we are now, that there is no sense of loss and longing to be who we once were.

And here’s a fucking conclusion for you, if you are still wondering about god,
1, if the world is caused by god and if god is responsible for everything there is, then is god responsible for evil? Then
2. if god is responsible for everything, so there is providential design- then what are humans responsible for?
-So it seems, like all scientific theories, if there is something unexplained you just come up with a ‘theory’ to fill that void. And if it seems plausible, roll with it, and come up with some scriptures to back it up. So in asking about cause and effect, something must be caused by an effect, and then even saying that a cause and effect can co exist, God still is the great uncaused cause, God is a way to fill a hole.


http://www.wspa.org.au/index.asp sad.

Quotes:
'how much honesty's healthy? say what's on your mind, the only way to be,' - lagwagon

'you're pretty lucky if you're reading this, you already have more resources than a lot of people, so do whatever the fuck you want to, at least you're not drinking water from a contaminated river.'

Friday, October 13, 2006

Where's the damn codeine?


i thought this was pretty neat, this cartoon was in the cavalier daily, UVa's daily newspaper with a 10,000 copy circulation. and don't worry there is an opus equivilant for the left wingers, its called the declaration and is out once a week, and unlike opus it actually makes sense and i enjoy reading it. anyway i was wondering why google paid such an exorbitant price, i think 1.6 billion dollars, they do have there own vweb ideo hosting you would think for a fraction of the price they could fix that up, and advertise if they want to dominate the video hosting arena.
The scissors thing is true, pretty much all i've watched on youtube is some guy shoot beer cans from a cannon at a target, some odd family guy clips, and a chineese dude actually shoot an arrow into another arrow, it didnt split it but actually went inside the other arrow!!

Donkey of the week: the dude who legislated against codeine being sold over the counter. I've run out of nurofen plus, and i went in CVS to buy some ibofuren and codeine combo which always fixes me up good, but codeine is prescription!! i can buy paint ball guns and shotguns at k-mart but i need a doctors prescription for codeine. i always had a suspicion that the codeine really didn't do much to my neck pain and that it was the ibofuren that did all the work and the codeine just gave a nice buzz, - but just ibofuren tablets did nothing!! and the worst part is that all the german students are throwing an octoberfest party tonight!!! and i have to miss it and sit in my dorm writing my stupid blog.Posted by Picasa

firefox: ive noticed when i view my website on firefox, that the pictres overlap the writing , and on internet explorer its fine, i dont know if its just my computer- but perhaps this site is best viewed with internet explorer- (bill gates just handed me a sack of cash)

Quotes: Clint Eastwood what a legend, i thought id recall a couple of my favourite lines, his deliveries are dry, and understated but pack a punch

-in million dollar baby when hillary skank is telling clint how she has no family anymore, and eastwood just sits for a moment then goes
'yeah, well... you got me.'

-and dirty harry callahan, i remember one scene where he and his partner are hiding during a convenience store robbery, and his partner gets edgy and stands up to shoot the robber, and callahan pulls him back down and says
'hold it,' 'hold it,' then stands up and blows fuck out of the robber with his giant colt and then turns to his partner and says, 'ok now.'

-and my favourite when callahan is trying to get some info at a fish co-op, and the dude says . 'your types not wanted around here callahan.' and callahan eyes him off then eyes of a bucket of fish heads and says . 'yeah, well why don't you go eat some fish heads.'

-and lastly in 'any which way you can,' where eastwood just cruises around with an orangutan called Clyde, and comidic hyjinx follow. its the best premise for a film ever, and eastwood has a runin with some bikies and is making his get away, and says . 'left turn clyde,' and the orangutan puts his left arm out the window and it knows the bikies bikes down in a domino effect- classic,

http://www.newsvine.com/_news/2006/10/13/399226-seal-falls-on-grenade-to-save-comrades these guys are based here in virginia- will it be looked back on in history as a nescesarry revolution for freedom, or a futile blood bath? it is not for us to decide the future reputation, but to allow a people the ability to one day express it - that same ability that many of us now, aren't willing to shed blood for, and are willing to protest against, using a right- that bloodshed many years ago has allowed. We are all humanity with no divide, when suffering is seen and acted upon, it should not be looked on through limits of a county, state or national boundaries. To say an area of people should only have uprising of their own will, when that will is not possible, then you have follied. A David and Goliath outcome is not a certain, sometimes people need assistance and to dispute the physical world we live in, and only think that such assistance can come through the pen, then that is to deny our very worldy and physical existance. At such a juncture in time, looking at the situations of the present and learning from the past but not retrospectively demanding action, we need to unite behind those who are willing to act. To disarm the nations that have unaccountable leadership, and are prone to denying their own citizens and our human brethren of basic needs.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Smells like holidays


This is a gnarly street chalk drawing in new york city. The perspective is amazing.
















i i captain, this is me sailing the high seas of the pittsburg river. i forgot to mention when i was in pittssburg with kimbo and bromley, that we went on an aquaducky tour, you go around the streets of pittsburg in a world war 2 amphibias vessel, then you hit the water, and go under a couple of the hundreds of bridges that surround pittsburg.






at the chineese buffet the other day, we got some fortune cookies, everyone got stuff like, 'you will succeed in life' 'your romantic outlook is good,' 'you are a lucky person.
this is what i got!!! a goddamn cake, the sum of my life is getting a nice cake, i mean i can't complain, i don't want to succeed in life, or have a good romantic life, i would be quite happy to just eat a nice cake. Thats all i am hoping for, and when i lay on my death bed my last words will be, 'i've had a good life, good, not great.' - it would also have to be a cake made from rice flour.

Posted by PicasaI thought i'd put in another cartoon from my philosophy book. We were talking about adam and eve, and why on earth god would metaphorically give a child a hand grenade, see at the time they don't know about right or wrong, and god is like 'hey kids, don't eat from this tree, or you'll get nice and fucked up.'








and the holidays have drawn to a close, steve is correct, once you are busy all week, those few hours you get on a weekend are very sweet. and then you have to write a dam paper.

Quotes: i thought id pull something from plato's the republic, the first couple of pages i found interesting, socrates is asking some old dude, what its like to be old, and i thought he's reply was pretty neat.

Cephalus: By zeus socrates, i will tell you exactly what i think. You see, a number of us who are more or less the same age often get together, when they meet, the majority of our members lament, longing for past pleasures of their youth and reminiscing about sex, drinking parties, feasts, and the other things that go along with them. They get irritated, as if they have been deprived of important things, and have lived well but are not living now. Some others, too, even moan about the abuse heaped on old people by their relatives, and for THAT reason recite a litany of all the evils old age has caused them. But i don't think they blame the real cause, Socrates. After all, if that were the cause, I too would have had the same experiences, at least as far as old ageis concerned, and so would everyone else my age. But as it is, i have met others in the past who don't feel that way - in particular, the poet Sophocles. I was once present when he was asked by someone, 'How are you as far as sex goes, Sophocles? Can you still make love to a woman?' 'Quiet man,' he replied, 'I am very glad to have escaped from all that, liek a slave who has escaped from a deranged and savage master.' I thought at the time what he said was sensible and i still do. You see old age brings peace and freedom from all such things. When the appetites cease to stress and importune us, everything Sophocles said comes to pass, and we escpae from many insane masters.
But in these matters, and in those concerning one's relatives, the real cause isn't old age, Socrates, but the way people live. If they are orderly and contented, old age, too, is only moderately onerous; if they aren't, both old age, Socrates, AND youth are hard to bear.

-if you read that, you'll find it's pretty relevant for something written in 380bc.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

The wagon


Mefthi from ethiopia discovering a piece of australiana

















i found the treasure at the vineyards, my search is finally over. The vineyards on saturday was my first bit of drinking for nearly three weeks, they had all their early 90's vintage wines up for tasting. I bought a 2004 bottle of merlot. The temptation was defiantely there to fall off the wagon, instead i kind of hung onto the rails and dangled my feet on the ground as it sped along. It's nice country around the vineyards which are about half an hour from c-ville.

Fall break is tomorrow, UVa are such task masters that fall break is only one day, one goddamn day, i have tuesday off though because the chick running the class-the professor - thought fall break should be at least two days, so i'll have to wait untill thanksgiving in late novemberto get some true time off, and by that time the semester is almost over anyway. I'm planning to eat at least three turkeys at the feast. And last the cavaliers beat duke 37-0 but yesterday, we lost again to east carolina so for the season we are 2wins and 4losses.

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Quotes:

Lisa: Oh, if I fail I won't even be able to get into Vassar.
Homer: I've had just about enough of your Vassar-bashing, young lady.
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'But you can't hold a whole fraternity responsible for the behavior of a few, sick twisted individuals. For if you do, then shouldn't we blame the whole fraternity system? And if the whole fraternity system is guilty, then isn't this an indictment of our educational institutions in general? I put it to you, Greg - isn't this an indictment of our entire American society? Well, you can do whatever you want to us, but we're not going to sit here and listen to you badmouth the United States of America. Gentlemen! '
-otter, ANIMAL HOUSE
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Katy: Is this really what you're gonna do for the rest of your life?
Boon: What do you mean?
Katy: I mean hanging around with a bunch of animals getting drunk every weekend.
Boon: No! After I graduate, I'm gonna get drunk every night.
-Animal House

Friday, October 06, 2006

Ka Boom

Posted by Picasa the pretty colo'u'rs --im starting to lose my australian spelling, i think the first essay i handed in the teacher must have got a shock, not only the spelling but we say things a bit differently down under, i still can't believe my room mates reaction's when i told them i was going out to hire some dvd's , they had no idea what i was talking about, i said it to some other people about hiring bikes too and they found it ammusing, apparently here in america you only hire women or mexican laborers, you don't hire inanimate objects that is called renting, i may have forgotten (i am the king) but im pretty sure we say hire dvd's, i don't know though, the whole of australia is becoming a distant blur




- im at home in c-ville now i have found a good barber, a chiro and good place to get a steak-ahh the simple things in life, jacob reckons (very aussie word) that god was very drunk or on acid when he was creating australia, 'lets make a big bouncing animal that carries its babies in its pouch and can stand on its tail and kick you with its legs,''and the platypus is always pretty fun, it looks like a hamster, but it has a beak and claws and lays eggs.'- and the word heaps, that doesn't exist as an adjective over here- heaps is just a pile of dirt, but im forgetting all my australian because even i found it(daniel is the king of all) weird when i read mom's postcard and it said 'miss you heaps' , it actually took a moment for me to register what was going on.

one thing i will have when i get back to oz is one of those takeaway shop, works burgers, there is no 'fish and chip' shops here or even good ol takeaway shops- and it's funny the big burger that all the college kids eat here, is called a 'gus', wow they(king daniel) think its so impressive because it has an egg on it! its just a cheeseburger with an egg on it, no bacon, no lettuce, no pineapple, of course no beetroot- i ate one and my friend was like 'hey how did that gus burger go?' like i had just tackled something epic-- amateurs, - i left some subliminal messages in the above, so if your now thinking im the king, just go with it.

and back in oz it will be nice not to here of students dying all the time, some girl was murdered on the weekend, the suspect is dead, the fbi shot him down in florida during a high speed chase, the poor girl was going to work with disabled kids, she was a real nice one,just graduated and all,and was doing grad school, and all she did was go study at some scenic drive or something, and she got killed for it.



Donkey Of The Week: american bacon.
i bought a frypan to cook up some bacon and eggs, the bacon here sucks though, they must cut off the rind and call that bacon and then throw the nice circle bit away, where is the circle bit?!









Quote
'everybody wish snoopy and woodstock were here? well they're dead, and guess what? i sold snoopy the junk that killed him, thats right he got it from me, i swear i didn't know how strong it was, and now he's dead, they're both dead. I don't give a crap about woodstock, but snoopy..... get of me you skank.'
Charlie Brown - Family Guy

Monday, October 02, 2006

Mascalzonni International FC

-the blind girl, i went to 'buffalo wild wings for lunch on the weekend with some friends, and got my usual plate of chicken nachos, this place is a sports fan dream, with giant walls full of hd screens playing every nfl game!, on the way out we met a blind girl who was looking for the law school. she was a good mile away. The law school is near my residence- faulkner, and to get there the road goes up a steep hill, with the woods on one side. She had a beautiful labrodor guide dog, but she was also a pretty crappy 'blind' person, you know you usually expect a certain level of autonomy from someone without sight, ive seen some pretty wicked people get around hecktily with just a cane. I had to really guide this girl around the carpark of wild wings and up the curb onto the sidewalk, and point her in the direction up the hill heading toward the law school, telling her to go straight across the road interesectioning about fifty yards ahead.

Who knows what she was doing in the carparks of the barracks road shopping centre, we then had to take andres to play goal keeper in a soccer match, the field was near the law school . Misael found it interesting that she had chosen to study law, and was concerned about the practicalities of taking on such a mighty degree, i figured she must be at least be good at studying because she is crap at being a blind person. there are so many books of required reading for law, she must have a lot of audio books, and someone who spends long hours reading the obscure texts that aren't available in brail.

after dropping andres off, we went back to barracks road shopping centre to pick up some groceries, on the way back down we saw the blind girl again, i had expected to see her nearly at the top of the hill and approaching her destination, so in looking out for her, i caught her on the wrong side of the road, heading in the wrong direction towards some woods not far from where we had left- she had turned left instead of heading straight up the hill at the intersection. A simple walk along a sidewalk is epic when you have no sight.

I had to jump out of the car and stop her from nearly sliding into a ditch that surrounded the forrest, and then get her dog to follow me back out of the alley, across the street and set her on the path again. She told me she had just gone for a walk and got lost. helping her did give me a nice feeling of satisfaction, and proved to be one of those 'times' that you sometimes have, where you stop and look at how much you take for granted, i do wonder how ponderous those moments would really be though, without seeing the misfortune of others. well even if your situation is crap and you cant see or something, i guess there is some relative thing to be happy about,
cephalus in the repulic says life is always onerous no matter what ones situation. Perhaps that is why the blind girl took the risk and went for a walk on such a beautiful day.


Mascalzonni International FC
that is the intra mural soccer team im in, made up of internationals. The reason for taking Andres to the game, i mentioned earlier, was because he was my replacement. I'm out injured! I am the goal keeper, and the first game we played, and my first ever as goal keeper! it got down to a penalty shootout - i saved the day, the next game in the tournament was the same afternoon, and we won too. So we progressed through to sundays matches, i woke up and couldn't move my legs, i was going to take some pain killers and play on like a stoic, but i saw andres in the hall and he said he was a varsity keeper at high school, so i let him take my place and we lost.
-the name mascalzonni is funny too, if you know someone who can speak italian.

-i don't know if you have heard yet, but there has been a shooting at an amish school in pensylvania, seven dead i think. and someone is holding a school hostage at the moment in vegas. I'm glad i go to college here, and not school. since august alone there has been over two dozen school shootings and three this week, the truck driver who shot the amish had been harbouring some twenty year grudge and just wanted to shoot young girls, thats fucked up, he even let people her weren't young girls out, then methodically called 911.


Posted by Picasathis is fireworks at the rotunda last friday night, thanks to toby futter form new zealand for the shot. I thought it was just another senseless celebration that always happens, but i found out it was a fundraiser for alumni and was broadcast on nbc, apparently 1billion dollars was raised. they are on track to make their goal of 7billion by 2011.
-it was unbelievable a full orchestra was set up on the lawn to play patriotic american songs, while they blasted fuck out of the skyline. in front of the rotunda is the lawn, which stretches down to the jefferson statue at the base, the statue you have to run to and back on a nudey run!
I would like to contrast it with the probable sausage sizzle that aussies would put on, and no one would show up - because it isn't cool to support that kind of thing, but here, there were thousands of people crammed on the lawn, singing school songs and just generally feeling elated at being part of UVA.

Quotes

Homer: Oh no! What have I done? I smashed open my little boy's piggy bank, and for what? A few measly cents, not even enough to buy one beer. Wait a minute, lemme count and make sure... not even close

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Homer: Bad bees. Get away from my sugar. Ow. OW. Oh, they're defending themselves somehow.

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Apu: I have come to make amends, sir. At first, I blamed you for squealing, but then I realized, it was I who wronged you. So I have come to work off my debt. I am at your service.
Homer: You're selling what, now?
Apu: I am selling only the concept of karmic realignment.
Homer: You can't sell that! Karma can only be portioned out by the cosmos.
Apu: He's got me there.

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Marge: Homer, a man who called himself "you-know-who" just invited you to a secret "wink-wink" at the "you-know-what". You are certainly are popular now that you've become a Stonecutter.
Homer: Oh, yeah. Beer busts, beer blasts, keggers, stein hoists, AA meetings, beer night. It's wonderful, Marge. I've never felt so accepted in all my life. These people looked deep within my soul and assigned me a number based on the order in which I joined.

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Marge: I think you should do it, Homer, you might learn something new!
Homer: Oh, Marge, whenever I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out. Remember that time I went to those duff brewery classes and I forgot how to drive?